The Approaching Holidays

Everywhere I go it is apparently clear that the fall season is fast approaching. It is not necessarily the crazy weather because let's face it the weather hasn't been reliable for telling the seasons in quite sometime. It is not even the fact that every morning when I walk my dog there are kids waiting for the school bus. What really reminds me that fall is here is the fact that Halloween candy and decorations are already on the shelves.

I am not the biggest fan of Halloween, although I am learning how to enjoy it more each year that I get older. I even have decorations, garland, light up ghosts and a door hanger that unfortunately no one will be able to see because of where my front door is currently located. At least I know that I don't have to buy candy this year because there are no children to visit me.

But what it all really means is that as Halloween gets closer so does the other holidays that come very quickly after. I have always very much enjoyed Thanksgiving and Christmas, they were some of the best memories I have of growing up. However I am realizing how much I kind of want to forget the holidays this year. It is not so much that I dislike them, it is more that I dislike how different they are in my family now that my grandfather has passed away.

It feels so different and not like the holidays at all and it was really hard for me to adjust last year. In fact I don't think that I was able to adjust at all and that is why I am having this small dilemma. I worry that I don't even want to take the time to go home this Thanksgiving. I am eagerly awaiting for the time when my holiday traditions change and are more like they used to be only just two years ago.