In the recent past I have taken up running. It has never been my favorite thing, I have only found the want to run if there was a purpose, like playing a sport or running away from zombies or other dangerous situations. No need to worry thought the latter has only happened a couple of times.
Running is definitely something that I am doing because well it is free and I can't afford a gym right now. It does have it's set backs such as my knee tweaking for a couple of days after each run/jog/walk. And the air is still cold from winter and makes my asthma kick in to high gear causing coughing fits even when I have taken my inhaler as prescribed. But I know there are benefits too.
I now that my body is reacting to the exercise even if it is not much. My clothes are fitting a little better and I can definitely tell that my body is getting stronger. Though I realized the other day that these are not the only reasons that I have been running. I have been running because it gives me the feeling of being able to run away from life's problems.
Not sure if that is a good thing or a bad thing but it is what it is. When there are problems or feelings that have been troubling me throughout the day I can just run away from them. It is a time when no one can get to me. A place and time when it is just me, I don't answer any text messages or anything of that sort, and I just run away from everything that might be plaguing me. The only thing that is hard sometimes is coming back from the run and remembering the reality that I running from my problems doesn't actually solve anything.
Friday, January 13, 2012
Wednesday, January 11, 2012
Surprise Blessing
Had a great experience tonight, got a phone call around 6:30 pm from the branch president asking if he could come visit me. Well he actually used the word "we", I did not know who that implied but I said yes anyways. especially since he said they were just coming over to check in on me.
This might seem odd but I need quite a bit of checking up on. Though I can take care of myself and another living creature, as shown by my dishes drying on the counter and my sleeping dog in the corner, it is nice to have someone of high authority come by and bring a priesthood presence to the house.
And that is what happened, though I was a little shocked that I was being visited/ home taught by the branch president and the stake president. When you open the door to that image you tend to wonder what exactly you did to warrant this visit. They truly did just come by to visit and talk though, and once they got past the vicious dog they were able to sit in peace. We talked about how I am doing in work and at home, with my finances and my interest in theater and what I am doing with that recently.
The best part of the night came when they were about to leave and unexpectedly the stake president asked if I wanted a priesthood blessing. I was taken aback by the question at first, I guess my first thought was why would I need one everything seems to be going fine right now, but when the stake president offers a blessing how can anyone refuse. So I accepted and branch president blessed me with all of the things that I need right now and somethings that I have been thinking about and some that I have not. What a wonderful experience to have tonight, when I was feeling a little low before.
This might seem odd but I need quite a bit of checking up on. Though I can take care of myself and another living creature, as shown by my dishes drying on the counter and my sleeping dog in the corner, it is nice to have someone of high authority come by and bring a priesthood presence to the house.
And that is what happened, though I was a little shocked that I was being visited/ home taught by the branch president and the stake president. When you open the door to that image you tend to wonder what exactly you did to warrant this visit. They truly did just come by to visit and talk though, and once they got past the vicious dog they were able to sit in peace. We talked about how I am doing in work and at home, with my finances and my interest in theater and what I am doing with that recently.
The best part of the night came when they were about to leave and unexpectedly the stake president asked if I wanted a priesthood blessing. I was taken aback by the question at first, I guess my first thought was why would I need one everything seems to be going fine right now, but when the stake president offers a blessing how can anyone refuse. So I accepted and branch president blessed me with all of the things that I need right now and somethings that I have been thinking about and some that I have not. What a wonderful experience to have tonight, when I was feeling a little low before.
Monday, January 9, 2012
New Year, New Attitude
As I was listening to people bear their testimonies today in Sacrament meeting I realized how optimistic people become at the thought of beginning a new year. It is as if the change of the last digit on the calendar has actually changed everything in their lives. Everything that people want becomes attainable, or at least it seems that is the way people feel.
I don't really know that I am an exception to this idea, I too have seen a change in my attitude and my life as this year begins to move forward. I don't want things to be the same in all aspects of my life but I do recognize that I need to change somethings and I am working on them. And somehow because the year changed I am afforded the opportunity to make the changes that I so desperately want.
There are certain things that I can't control that still feel are out of my reach, but I am trying to focus on the short term goals that can hopefully make a difference in the way I am living. I guess that is why one of the concepts I really liked learning in church today was the idea that with many things in our life we may fail but we are blessed with the option to try and try again.
Although the effort can be a taxing ordeal and many times it becomes discouraging for the person repeating the attempt, I thought more about what a privilege it is to be able to try something over again until you get it right. A great example is such, I may stink sometimes at sitting down and typing out my thoughts on my blog, but at anytime I can make the attempt to get back on track. And the good news is that blogs are like children, if you think this one is going bad then you can always just make another and try again ;)
I don't really know that I am an exception to this idea, I too have seen a change in my attitude and my life as this year begins to move forward. I don't want things to be the same in all aspects of my life but I do recognize that I need to change somethings and I am working on them. And somehow because the year changed I am afforded the opportunity to make the changes that I so desperately want.
There are certain things that I can't control that still feel are out of my reach, but I am trying to focus on the short term goals that can hopefully make a difference in the way I am living. I guess that is why one of the concepts I really liked learning in church today was the idea that with many things in our life we may fail but we are blessed with the option to try and try again.
Although the effort can be a taxing ordeal and many times it becomes discouraging for the person repeating the attempt, I thought more about what a privilege it is to be able to try something over again until you get it right. A great example is such, I may stink sometimes at sitting down and typing out my thoughts on my blog, but at anytime I can make the attempt to get back on track. And the good news is that blogs are like children, if you think this one is going bad then you can always just make another and try again ;)
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